About The Little Miss Sunshine

You Know Why Do I Blog?

Aiyaaa… said busy busy all de time. Got time to blog some more. What lah you! Go to sleep lah!” Said my boy-boy.

Chronologically: Monday, 14.01.2008

07.20 am -  woke up
08.10 am -  breakfast
09.00 am -  drove to work
09.35 am -  arrived in the office
09.45 am -  started working
01.10 pm -  had my lunch
01.40 pm -  back to work
08.45 pm -  had my dinner (in front of my PC in the office, bleh!)
10.15 pm -  finally, drove back home
10.45 pm -  had my shower

and then here I am, online. Checking my facebook updates, sneaking on pictures in friendster, reply emails, leave comments on blogs, and writing this useless post.

Only for one reason: So that I dun’t feel guilty for not spending a lil’ time of my day (at all) for myself.

And now only. I am willing to call it a night.

PS: Fatique driving is so so dangerous. Don’t do that, huh!

*YeHa 14.01.08 - 11.23pm

A Rubbish Post

This isn’t a spam, not a blog either. Just simply click and type my fingers on the keyboard and jot down wats swimming on my mind.

Just feel like wanna vomit out wat’s swimming on my alpha mind state. No intention, no purpose, just random words that come by.

Sleepy bubbly, miss you, sad, tears, disappointment, why don’t u understand me, I’m fat, dimsum, happy lover, lonely girlfriend, take me away with you, tired bone, panda eyes, please stay, hopeless dreamer, fake, trust, hug me tight, brutal honesty, angel, emotionally unstable, sacrifaction, i dunt want to sleep alone tonight, coco crunch, santan, true love is only found in novel, alien, beautiful stranger, a house, japanese food, lowbat, kick ass, sunshine, gloomy december, wedding ring, is marriage really made in heaven, malaysia, heart breaker, Dad’ I’m a grown up, hurt, bobey greeno, shit, alfa scorpii, fruitless idealistic, dun’t judge me, honesty, you, another you, why you again, sorry, dun’t be stupid, Hanoi, dinner dash, bed cover, goodnight kiss, dream of me, asshole, what am I thinking, Zzzz…

O! What a wise wasting my sleeping time writing this rubbish, huh? He doesn’t even read it, miserable fantasist!

Aplaus Fiesta #2: The Cause Finally Championed

I know this was supposed to be the big day for the finalists and winners of AAM, but sorry to steal the limelight. I personally (as the project manager of AAM and Aplaus Fiesta) couldn’t be more blissful than this.

Yes, Mahadi… I knew u’re. That stupid lovey-dovey text u sent me in the middle of the night showed how grateful u’re. We’re all satisfied with what we’ve done. I believed everybody is. Some might be sleeping soundly and dreamt a fairy tale on that nite. Some were too exhausted to express their feelings. Some celebrated it and got high like you. But I dunt need to be drunk to be intoxicated with ecstasy. Believe it or not, no matter how tired and sleepy I was, I couldn’t sleep that night! I smiled and laughed and cried at the same time.

As I remember, flashing back to a year ago, a cause to champion was declared.

Just as soon as I stepped on my homeland. I made it colossal, I voiced it loud. Announce it to the whole world so that everyone knows, then I’ll be bothered if I dun’t make it real.

And beibeh! It works that way!
There’s no turning back if words have been promised. I have to proof to myself that I could make a difference. I need a reason to stay more than just a statement ‘Mom and Dad, I am back for good” was said. I need to work out to get in the way. And I need more than just a rationale. An action!

Ops! No intention to make it sounds serious.

So, before I go on with my crappy philosophy, let me send my gratitude to all of you who has supported me. To my parents who grumbled all nite long and couldn’t sleep ‘cos I was only home midnite, or even early morning on those 2 days before the event.

“Hallo? Hah? Not home yet? Do u know what time is it?”

“Hallo, Dad. Oh, not yet… there’re still a lot of things to be done here in the office.”

“Are you crazy? This is already midnite. You know what, if I got an employee like you, I would be the happiest Lao Pan already.” He lectured.

“Don’t worry, Dad. I’m not alone here. Most of my colleagues are staying. Just go to bed first. Don’t wait.”

“What? How do u expect ur Daddy to sleep when his girl not yet home at this time?

Oohhhh… Daddy, u’re so sweet. But stop being a daddy pleaseeee…

He and his theory “breeding a daughter is harder than petting a thousand cows” is a bit old fashion. Guys,  don’t u think so? Haha… but at least I know he really really loves me.

Mommy tak mau kalah. She hugged and kissed me after reading the newspaper in the next morning. “I’m proud of you, Darling.”

This Darwis really made me, so-called, “the glare of publicity”. Aiyah,.. too much lah. Put my ‘gong-gong’ face so big on page 3 for wat… Your trust and support has done me more than enough.

And to my super team, “You guys had done a fantastic job!

BIG APPLAUSE TO ALL OF US.”

Of course there’re a lot of people I would like to thank. But this is not the Oscar Show. So, keep it short and sweet… you know who you’re, thank you for giving me the chance to do something and be somebody. Thank you for knowing me by heart.

Last but not least, to my inspiration, Janet Lee.
Thank you for showing me how to trust. Now I really understand what the difference between being ‘perfect’ and ‘excellent’ is. Of course Shahnaz got his share for giving me such a hard time. Now I know how to handle people like him. (*Ops, there’s a special case for this issue during the committing of the event. I really learnt a lot here).

Enough for the speech.

Now, lets prepare for the next hit.

See you at the top!

*YeHa - November 2, 2007

Aplaus Fiesta #1: The Most Jam-Packed Celebration in Town

Good morning / afternoon / evening to Chan, Atanid, Ade, Ching, and Lishe who’re far-far away over the ocean, I know u’re craving so so much for this report. You guys have been nagging me for days. Well, I got the semangat to blab, but got no tenaga to type leh. But hey, finally… this is for you.

The art of Celebrating Lifestyle.

O-ow, not meant to blow the horn, but this is one of the most happening exhibition-entertainment event in Sun Plaza. Seriously! Not because I’m an in-house talent, but it was sincerely groovy, lively, juicy, bouncy, trendy and chillin’… more than what we expected.

OK..OK… I said ‘one of the most‘, not ‘the most’.

 

As you can see, the exhibition design was sophisticated and modern in style. Well, it better be. The committee had already put a lot lotz of effort and was very detail for the finishing. Amazing backdrop design, colors used, shape and space, adorable mascots, the talents, the artworks, typography, giant banners and all promotional items, merchandise, the specially designed T-Shirts for the committee, multimedia presentation, standing flowers, props, sofa set, lighting, and even choices of backsound music. G!!! Eight months for preparing this, Man! Eight months…

Of course nothing is perfect. Traffic and logistic were a bit lack here and there.
An old song, blame the technical problem.

The character displays got wet during the loading that we’d to reprint, cut, and stick each of them until 1 a.m. in the morning. Then Ben missed out the morning flight and touched down a bit late for last minute briefing. Thanks God, he’s a smart guy.

More over, the 60′ TV Plasma installed on the stage was ‘kaput’ just 3 hours before the show. Instead, we got 42′ after an episode of panic. Confetti also didn’t shoot on the opening ceremony. The rundown was a bit over the schedule. But still… the venue was jam-packed. Isn’t it good, that after all, the crowd’s still around and gathered in the main atrium to witness the new era of local creativity?

Yeah, that’s exactly the point.
There’s no such thing as a pefect event. We just wanna keep it chill, memorable, and as lively as Aplausers themselves. Be crazy, be expresive. Thou the first day was a bit formal (but meaningful), the second day succesfully gave those experiences. Congrats to all AAM winners, their works’re amazing. Thanks to Opiet and team as well. And especialy for the MCs, you guys rock!!!

On the other corner of the main atrium, transaction was good. For the first time, Aplaus commercialize its design collection for merchandise and fashion items. There’re limited edition T-Shirt, mug, caps, pins, and birthday cards in the booth. Not bad at all for the first timer. Maybe in the future Aplaus can have its own fashion brand. Who knows.

Tarot stand was fashionably popular. Big thanks to out Tarot Diviner, Xuang Li, who had intrepreted this celebration before it happenned. Sofyan Kwan and Mandyko did well their parts as well. Either did Peppito and Super Wonderland. Most Favorite, was the Magician Show, Invicible 999 from Bandung. They’re stunning.

For those who’re ‘malu-malu kucing’ and missed the boat on the red carpet pose, shame on you. Aplaus Spotlite was really fun. Check this out.

Yeah, certainly reading this blog can’t beat the experiences you got with Aplaus team on the spot. So, next time, make sure that you don’t miss out any of Aplaus event.

Sleepy bunny, I’m departing to lala land soon.

Many stories to tell, less battery is left.

Im going off now.

To be continued.

*YeHa - 01 Nov 2007. 11.35 pm

 

 

 

Good-Bye September

September berlalu begitu saja tanpa berbelas kasihan pada tumpukan kerjaan yang masih berserak dan menumpuk di mejaku. Luar biasa berantakan, luar biasa tumpang tindih. Sampai bingung aku mau mengerjakan yang mana dulu. Lagian, Fiesta tinggal menghitung hari. Maka tak heran, bulan lalu kulalui dengan insomnia, asam lambung, dan ramuan tradisional Cina untuk menambah stamina tubuh.

Mana pula, tiga dari sekian pekerja terbaik Aplaus berturut-turut pamit untuk mengejar cita dan cinta di luar sana. Saya lupa kapan tepatnya, yang jelas dalam dua bulan terakhir ini, kantorku banjir air mata, saling berpeluk dan mengucapkan salam perpisahan.

Pertama, Willim Qiu, asistenku yang smart dan bertampang sangat menjual. He’s so young and bright, maka tidak heran tawaran dan kesempatan baru adalah tantangan menarik baginya. Sayang, saya belum sempat eksploitasi dia sampe ke intisarinya. haha… Well, I believe he made up his choice with a very fine reasoning. Good luck to u, my boy. Like what Dave said, “Thanks, and see you at the top.”

Lalu, menyusul editor super teliti, Erni Susanti, yang melalangbuana ke Pulau jawa untuk mewujudkan komitmen dan impiannya sejak dulu, mengabdi kepada keyakina yang dianutnya. Sungguh sebuah keputusan yang sangat berani, dan indah.

Si imut Chandrawaty yang selalu menyemangatiku setiap hari dengan ‘sound effect‘ dan suara super sopran melengking, akhirnya juga menemukan tumpuan hati. Media and advertising. Ia pun memutuskan untuk melanjutkan studi ke Singapore.

Too bad, intake-nya terlalu dini hingga ia harus dengan berat hati mengatakan maaf, tidak bisa berkontribusi hingga selesai Fiesta. Waktu itu, sangat sulit bagiku untuk menerima kenyataan, bahwa seorang Chandra yang sangat gigih dan mencintai pekerjaannya dengan sepenuh hati, bisa tega melangkah pergi.

But, as I know her so well, apapun keputusan yang diambil, ia tidak akan melangkah mundur atau menyesali. Untunglah waktu sebulan berhasil mengatasi rasa shock dan keberatanku mengantarnya pergi. Hingga hari terakhir itu, tidak ada air mata sama sekali, hanya rasa bangga dan bahagia untuk seorang sahabat yang pergi mewujudkan cita. Harapan dan asa pun kutitipkan bersamanya.

Memang tidak gampang untuk mengikuti kata hati, apalagi mengambil keputusan berdasarkan insting dan kata hati. Big applause for them. dengan lapang dada dan senyum tulus, kuantarkan doa. “Biarkan kita berpisah untuk berjumpa kembali.”

All the best.

YeHa* early october 2007.

. . .

cold dinner at 10 pm.

exhausted.
just know no more what i’m fighting for.
the good fight that never be fairly winned.
why must it be winner and loser?

the passion (and patient) is slowly burned out.
again, can you remind me what i’m fighting for?

overtime thought on *yeha

Dirgahayu MerahPutih

Acara ‘tujuh-belasan’
tahun ini berlalu seperti suasana hari merah lainnya. Hampir tidak ada
hiruk pikuk dan pekikan semangat yang terdengar. Pukulan di pundak atau jabat tangan sambil salam ‘merdeka’ juga hanya satu-dua. Aku sempat menebarkan SMS berbunyi dirgahayu ke–mungkin 20 puluhan nomor, namun seperti yang kuduga hanya dua berbalas. Apakah semangat nasionalisme, patriotisme, veteranisme, atau apapun itu sebutannya, sudah mulai luntur dari semangat generasi muda sekarang? Atau ia terpendam begitu dalam hingga terlalu ‘ultra-hertz’ untuk disuarakan?

Hmm… Bisa jadi alasan gelombang dan signal yang kurang memadai untuk merambatkan suara hati yang jadi tumbalnya.

Pagi ini kusempatkan diri menyaksikan siaran langsung upacara detik-detik proklamasi di Istana Merdeka, membuatku rindu saat-saat upacara bendera setiap Senin saat sekolahan dulu. Agenda rutin yang membosankan, namun juga mengesankan. Dulu aku pernah berpura-pura sakit perut kedatangan ‘tamu’ agar diberi izin untuk tinggal di dalam kelas saja. Dulu juga aku berusaha berdiri di baris belakang agar bisa bergosip sambil mengunyah permen karet. Well, untuk postur tubuh mini-ku emang agak susah untuk berbaris di belakang, selalu aja ada yang senewen “…yang merasa
pendek baris di depan.”

Namun ada saat-saat tertentu aku merasa bangga, ketika menjadi salah satu petugas upacara di depan sana misalnya. Apalagi ketika dua tahun terakhir di SMU aku ‘dikurbankan’ jadi ketua kelas oleh anak-anak, yah… pemimpin pasukan jadi langganan tiap Senin.

Begitu juga semangat senasib-seperjuangan membawa anak-anak Ibu Pertiwi di negeri seberang merasa seperti ’saudara’. Walau hanya disumpah dengan status international student tanpa saksi mata. Di negara manapun juga, aku yakin, asal ada anak indo yang terdampar, pasti istilah legendaris ‘senasib-sepenanggungan’ diploklamirkan.

Diskriminasi terkikis, berganti nasionalis. Ironisnya, beda dengan anak-anak
negeri yang masih jago di kandang sendiri. Tahunya hanya demo dan tawuran untuk memperjuangkan alasan yang kurang jelas. Tapi kalau protesnya untuk kepentingan bersama, seperti cerita klasik pemadaman lampu oleh PLN, nah… itu boleh juga disebut salah satu bentuk nasionalisme kali.

Yang penting, di usia kemerdekaan ke-62 ini, kita harus benar-benar mengerti arti kebebasan dan kemerdekaan, bertindak dan berucap dengan bijaksana. Jangan jajah diri kita sendiri dengan keterbelakangan, gagap teknologi, master of problem-making, rules-breaking, dan persaingan tidak sehat. Jangan juga rusak lingkungan alam dan properti negara dengan tindak vandal. Buang sampah juga pada tempatnya lah, Lai! Dan tidak lupa untuk selalu mengingatkan pada diri kita sendiri, “However, I’m proud to be an Indonesian.”

Dirgahayu
Indonesiaku, jayalah engkau selalu.

*YeHa - 17.08.07
catatan di malam proklamasi 2007

Wonderful Weekend Ever

Well..well… routinity had cost me piggy syndrome at weekend. Lazying around and enjoying my life with no ‘REPORT’ and ‘SUPERVISING’. Really-really peaceful and down to earth, just staying at home, and be low profile

So, let me share some interesting highlights in the wind at home this week. (sounds so happening, huh?)

1. Tuesday, 31 July 2007 - The Falling of Melinjo Tree

It was raining heavily, plus damn strong wind, turbulence. I was on deadline and so busy that I didn’t even know wats happening outside. Just on my way back home late at 10pm, i realized that there’re so many tree branches and trunkes downfell on the roadside, all over and all along. Right after I reached home, my busy-body maid couldnt wait to tell me the story of the falling Melinjo tree (Gnetum gnemon L, this tree can grow very tall). It’s the TWIN Melinjo tree I can say, cos there’re two of them. One flop down near the fish ponds, another one collapse on my grandma’s sister’s house (which is connected to our house). There’s small fire caused by the short circuit breakdown which fortunately put off immediately. Thanks God. Well… see this 10m++ trees above.Dad spent almost one million rupiah just to hire a big tractor or watever to get rid of it.

2. Saturday, 4 August 2007 - My Lil’ Brother

Mommy is lonely after my younger sister, Ching, left for study. I think that’s why she adopted a new kiddo. This litte fella. Mom will bring it all around everyday, go to office, go throw rubbish, go to kitchen, go to her room.. and this fella really really particularly picky when comes to food. Can u imagine!! It ate Mie Pansit Akhun for breakfast! My Gosh!!! High maintanance, man… Ckckck…

It’s somehow so troublesome huh, we spent 2 days just to find the suitable name to call it. Mom called him Moly at first, then after 2 mins she called it Albert, she said that’s what its previous owner called it. Then she mumbled to herself, that sounds like one of her cousin’s son’s name and she would kill my mom if know about it. Then My brother called it San Qiu (Thinny) because it’s so skinny. Then here I comes, "Hey, I got an idea, we called him Mr. Q!" But it didn’t last long. My second try, Martini, but sounds so girly. Finally my third try sounded amazing to them, ‘O Kutz‘ means Black Bone in Hok Kian. Simply because he’s dark and has no meat. Kewl!!! Hey, this O Kutz so lasak!! jump here and there, I couldnt take its pictures sharp enough in that lighting. Blur blur…

3. Saturday, 4 August 2007 - Sejuta Pelita Sejuta Harapan

On the evening, my brother, me and mom went to Lapangan Benteng to attended this Buddhist event called ‘Sejuta Pelita, Sejuta Harapan’. Straight translation means ‘A Million of light, A Million of Hope." There’re around 7000 people there, almost hit the numbers on Jacky Cheung’s concert :p The whole event’s not bad lah. It was to wish the goodness for Indonesia on it’s 62nd independece day. Long time I never made serious and fully sincere contemplation on something.

Best thing of all, we’d succesfully brought mom out a while from home. Usually she’s so lazy one. She’s so much in her comfort zone at home. At least now, she’s more active and wanna go out, not so much a thinker anymore. Good for her.

4. Sunday, 5 August 2007 - Fishing small fishes

Taraaa…. my lil cousin, Alex, came to visit. So I got him around and play-play. Supposedly we went for swimming, or jogging, anything that make me sweat and lose a few calories. But then I was so busy cleaning my room (After Ching left, wanna packed anything unemployed so my room’s not so stuffy). Later in the afternoon, we managed to do something interesting. We went far deep (or behind) my dad’s workshop near the wood. There’s a pond. We catched a few gobi merak to  add on my mom’s collection at home. With fish net and pail, we’re working so hot under the sun. Then suddenly we saw this baby snake 30 cm long swimming in the pond and trying to jeopardize a frog. walaaoooo… scary lah. Go back home lah then. Too bad didnt bring camera.

Aha…. that’s all my sweet story of perfect weekend. So homey and lovely… spending time with family at home. Long time never feel this feeling
Hey, guys and gals… try this trick next week.

*YeHa

Borobudur, the Forgotten Wonder

Oh, it was real hard to steal a break out of routine lately. A hectic schedule had accidentally injected a mindset that it’s better to invest my time on bed rather than blogging out here. But I finally found a sneak in, thanks God!

Hey, I know this is absolutely an out of date story. Shame of me! But I think you chould check it out! Especially after the New Seven Wonders was announced on the 07.07.07 at 07.07am in LIsbon, Portugal. Borobudur is now a totally forgotten wonder of the world.

Wayfering Borobudur
Once, I told myself dat one of my dreams, was to pay a visit to a BUddhist’s heritage on a Vesak month. Either it’s Borobudur, or Bnagkok, or possibly India. Best, if I could wayfaring on a pilgrimage. Seriously a journey with NO DUTY on my head. Purely just a journey with my soul. What I mean here, is totally on my own (not a family trip, not with bf, or bunch of girl friends).

30 May to 2 June, here was the magical moments. Finally able to get myself to Borobudur, but ON DUTY, and with a colleague. Well, not bad, not bad at all. At least we got to stay at the Grand Hyatt Regency. Really really really a nice and comfy stay. I felt like a rich. Thanks to last minute booking. Dunt know from where the crowd broke in, but Yogyakarta was fully booked at dat time. So, we got to stay at this 5-stars hotel instead.

Maybe the Vesak celebration’s one of the reason. It has been commercialized to stimulate tourism by the government this year. There’s a massive procession from Candi Mendut. (thru Candi Pawon) to Candi Borobudur followed by thousands fellowship from different cities and countries around South East Asia. There’s also a collaboration perfoming art, Imaging Buddha, from 8 countries around South East Asia region.

I did my job, experiencing the beauty of Borobudur, talk to the locals, talk to the tourists, tour guide, then the people from the government, the people in charge for preservaton of the site, the committee, the choreographer and dancers of Imaging Buddha, taxi drivers, some Buddhist activists that cons the commercialization of this scared site. Different points of view, some were extremely a clash, but all lead to the same conclusion, the proud of having this world’s heritage on the land of Indonesia.

The government has announced the Declaration of Borobudur last year and plan to link Borobudur as the sister temple with Ayutthaya, a century younger- site in Thailand. They’re doing a campaign called ‘Trail of Civilization’.

Maybe worry about the New Seven Wonders issue… Borobudur has been eliminated from the list by polling. Ow, such a heartache! For decades, we’ve been told since primary school that Borobudur was listed in the Seven Wonders. But what on earth, I couldn’t find any source in the World Wide Web stating that she’s in the list! Then why was it written so in our history textbook? Huh?

(Look at the detail in the crafted walls, so amazing… How could people of Mataram in the 9th century sketch it on the stone wall was still a mistery. Borobudur is the largest Ti-pitaka in the world I think…)

Maybe just forget the idea of Seven Wonders! LIke what a tourist told me during the interview, "the world has more ways than just seven wonders." That’s so true! Look at the hundreds candidates from all over the countries. So amazing how science and technology could be applied in the olden days. For me, the predicate of World’s Heritage given by the UNESCO is more than enough.

However, the local as been worried about the lesser tourists visiting the site, caused by the bombing and earthquakes issues. I can tell that they’re so poor. If u were there, My God! You’d get hypertension for them kept bugging u for at least 15 mins, just to get you buy a bottle of mineral water. Can’t blame. They live a very simple life and depend on tourism for living. Yet, you and I know how the tourism climate in my country.

Thou,this was om duty trip, but still, Borobudur was marvelous. Even till now I could still remember how beautiful and stunning she was. Especially at night, when the light was on (not an often they got the lighting on, cos it’s damn expensive for maintanance). Like a bonus for me, she’s even mor gorgeous on the night Siddharta got enligtened.

(Candle procession/pradaksina around the Borobudur on Vesak day)

(Lantern of world peace, fly and fly away to the sky… reach to every heart and spread the unconditional love)

It was so hot on that day. Look at the monk’s face!

There’re nearly 100 photographers capturing the moments of procession. And  me and my tiny body had to squeze here and there to get the composition I wanted.

We’re out there from early morning till 12am in the midnite, and I hardly dragged my legs to move along like a dead body. So so tired! Especially when you didnt bath, and bringing along a ransel and a 10 kg camera, and climbing the never-ending stairs.

and this are some shots from Imaging Buddha.

Well…well…welll…. couldnt go on furthermore. Need to rest. If you’re interested to read my reportage, click at this link borobudur, the forgotten wonders? 

Borobudur rocks!

*YeHa - on a raw pilgrimmage

Over the Ocean’s Relationship

Funny, seeing how some of us struggling to keep a relationship, dying to commit and keeping the fire on. Even more frustating when it’s a long distance relationship. Me and a buddy has come to this issue for months, and had finally formulated these… some interesting facts about over the ocean’s relationship

1. Well, theoretically I learn how to appreciate every single moment (I got the chance to be) with him.

2.Flying 45 mins flight to see him feels like going for a dream holiday. Plan every single place I wanna visit with him every single day with every single conthing I wanna him to see me fitted in.

3. Suddenly, technology seems to be the saviour of life.

4.But not the lucky handphone shop I usually buy the credit from.
I’m over-credited and broke!

5. Then I try cheaper alternative, praying all nite long, hope will see him in my lala-land.

6. And living in my fantasy.

7. Expert in photoshop and spend hours editing his pictures could help.

8.Then sometimes i feel wanna tell every detail happen in my life when I heard the first ‘hello’

9. Or feel bitter the first second I heard his unfeeling voice on the phone.

10.At the other time I struggle between love and boredom.
Trying to revive the love through memories.

11. And hell ya, will take lots of gingo billoba or watever food suplement for brain (to keep the memories on).

12. Surfing the internet in between office hours to steal some romance tips.

13. Will eat any tasks just to make sure I got something to do. Or else, couldn’t stop thinking of him and get my heart broken for not being there by his side.

14. Then I start seacrhing for songs he likes and grow to like them.

15. And searching all the right songs represent my feeling and listen to them just to entertain myself.

16. Stalking his personal blog or friendster to make sure everything is on the rite track.

17. I hate to say this, but sometimes I think I’m suffer from phobia. (what is he doing now? who is he being with? etc.. etc…)

18. When I see him change, it just feels like the universe is betraying me.

19. I wish I have my own spy network agency.

20. So lazy to sweat small stuffs with him cos credit is expensive leh.

21. Couldn’t get angry with him when I am, cos it’s really a rare chance to get him on the line. Just dont wanna spoil.

22. I’ve been thinking of presents and surprises thou there’s no moment to celebrate.

23. Of course this long distance relationship makes me think over the decision I made or about to make, a thousand times. Especially anything about ‘location’.

24. Good thing is, I become more independent. There’s always thing I thought I couldn’t settle without him, but I actually could make it when he’s not around.

25. Free from jealousy, possesive, and over protection of and from him.

26. More mature in setting ground rules for both party, cos I understand there’s boundary I couldn’t break thru.

27. Distance is no matter. Everything is easy and seems as close just to see him.

28. Realize there’s no such thing as overdetailed description in his life. Hearing the same thing from him over and over again doesn’t kill at all.

29. And there’s no such thing as time differences.

30.Last but not least, I understand what commitment really means.

Care to add some more?

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*YeHa-29.06.07. in collaboration with atanid