Filed under: To My Dearest...
Funny, seeing how some of us struggling to keep a relationship, dying to commit and keeping the fire on. Even more frustating when it’s a long distance relationship. Me and a buddy has come to this issue for months, and had finally formulated these… some interesting facts about over the ocean’s relationship 
1. Well, theoretically I learn how to appreciate every single moment (I got the chance to be) with him.
2.Flying 45 mins flight to see him feels like going for a dream holiday. Plan every single place I wanna visit with him every single day with every single conthing I wanna him to see me fitted in.
3. Suddenly, technology seems to be the saviour of life.
4.But not the lucky handphone shop I usually buy the credit from.
I’m over-credited and broke!
5. Then I try cheaper alternative, praying all nite long, hope will see him in my lala-land.
6. And living in my fantasy.
7. Expert in photoshop and spend hours editing his pictures could help.
8.Then sometimes i feel wanna tell every detail happen in my life when I heard the first ‘hello’
9. Or feel bitter the first second I heard his unfeeling voice on the phone.
10.At the other time I struggle between love and boredom.
Trying to revive the love through memories.
11. And hell ya, will take lots of gingo billoba or watever food suplement for brain (to keep the memories on).
12. Surfing the internet in between office hours to steal some romance tips.
13. Will eat any tasks just to make sure I got something to do. Or else, couldn’t stop thinking of him and get my heart broken for not being there by his side.
14. Then I start seacrhing for songs he likes and grow to like them.
15. And searching all the right songs represent my feeling and listen to them just to entertain myself.
16. Stalking his personal blog or friendster to make sure everything is on the rite track.
17. I hate to say this, but sometimes I think I’m suffer from phobia. (what is he doing now? who is he being with? etc.. etc…)
18. When I see him change, it just feels like the universe is betraying me.
19. I wish I have my own spy network agency.
20. So lazy to sweat small stuffs with him cos credit is expensive leh.
21. Couldn’t get angry with him when I am, cos it’s really a rare chance to get him on the line. Just dont wanna spoil.
22. I’ve been thinking of presents and surprises thou there’s no moment to celebrate.
23. Of course this long distance relationship makes me think over the decision I made or about to make, a thousand times. Especially anything about ‘location’.
24. Good thing is, I become more independent. There’s always thing I thought I couldn’t settle without him, but I actually could make it when he’s not around.
25. Free from jealousy, possesive, and over protection of and from him.
26. More mature in setting ground rules for both party, cos I understand there’s boundary I couldn’t break thru.
27. Distance is no matter. Everything is easy and seems as close just to see him.
28. Realize there’s no such thing as overdetailed description in his life. Hearing the same thing from him over and over again doesn’t kill at all.
29. And there’s no such thing as time differences.
30.Last but not least, I understand what commitment really means.
Care to add some more?
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*YeHa-29.06.07. in collaboration with atanid
