Filed under: The Two Side Coins...
A long break.
Have no enough space for me to vomit out and sum up what has happened these double full moons. I just feel… jumbled up, up side down.
Trapped in the nasty cycle with a different ‘me’: different sense, different character, different response, different feeling and different feedback.
And this is very very much affected by how people around see me as and treat me like.
Sometimes I wonder, “Maybe I suffer for Multiple Personality Disorder or something…”
Hmm,.. maybe you should check them out and try to be friends with them.
Yenny ‘The Wonder Woman’
Superior
, sharp, strong and powerful. The freakin controller and bitchy choleric that hates melancholic people who live in their past and regretting-crying-but never do anything- for their life. As her, I can be very sarcastic and brutally honest. Sometimes too dictating and no care of what the opponent’s feeling at the time. No excuses will be accepted, it’s either ‘great’ or ‘you don’t want it bad enough.’ Where can meet her: in a team, in office, in the past love story.
Siao Yenny ‘The tiny girl with the tiny eyes’
Weak, blur, forgetful, and careless. This girl spending too much time to impress but also afraid of failure. Can do stupid and illogical mistake like went to male toilet at a hypermarket or over-swung her hands and accidentally hit her boy friend’s ‘gacok’. So phobia driving any borrowed cars, and also so so dependant and easily panic. Where can meet her: when settling with unfamiliar thingie and hang out with best friends.
Yenny ‘The Perfectionisto’
Familiar with the call ‘One Man Show.’ Hardly giving trust to others, she tends to single fight every project to make sure everything is great, beautiful, and perfect as she wants. So much target oriented until she forget to enjoy the process itself. Until she understood that sometimes is not always about the result but people, feeling and trust that matters, this Yenny was quite dominant an overpowering in a sense. (Most importantly, she also found out that she’s not a robot that can do everything single handedly. Thanks God!) Where can meet her: in a team (esp. high school, college, organization).
Yenny de A’mour ‘The Lover’
Sweet, coddle, giving, passionate, dumb-dumb (what a controversial categories). Like typical blind lover, high possibility of doing stupid and acting childish during the season. Trust and communication are the strongest pillars to hold on. Hardly fall in love, but once she got trapped in it, she will commit 100%. When so, her five senses are extremely activated and super duper sensitive. Can be very passionate, loving, truthful, but at the same time demanding and jealousy. (I bet my boy is damn terrified for I seemed like so obsessed with him). Where can meet her: he knows, the one and only.
Yenny Mellow ‘The Analyst’
I hate myself being jammed in this personality. So melancholy, so baby, so emotional, so skeptic. Sometimes craving for attention and dying of love. Sometimes felt deeply disappointed, betrayed and played unfairly. Sometimes just stuck in the middle of nowhere and being captivated in emptiness. But this is also the moment I truly look into myself and see what’s going on in my life. Here is the only chance my heart takes over my brain and just let it goes. But hopefully not too much. Where can meet her: when I feel lost and alone.
Yenny ‘The Neutral’
This is the most normal Yenny ever be. Standing in the middle, meet a goal and make mistakes. Hurt and be hurt. Love and be loved. To give and take, to motivate and be encouraged. To lose control and be solid. To lead and be guided. Not trying hard to be perfect but also expecting the best out of others. And the most obvious of all, attempt to be wise and mature but also let my kiddo part slots in sometimes. Hmm,.. sometimes it just to neutral that it’s boring and routine. Where can meet her: maybe the ‘ah so’ in the office will be a good example.
Yenny ‘The Rebel’
Hmm… I can be quite rebellious sometimes. Well, just face me to any guys who underestimate woman power, or… my parents that over-protect me so much, taking away my freedom and trust, or someone that lecture too much and trying hard to change me, or blaming me for thing I never responsible for. Trust me, you will hate this stubborn and righteous girl. (you know where to meet her)
Aunt Yenny ‘The Super Kepo’
Maybe active is not the right word to describe me and my passion. ‘Hyperactive’ serves better. Admire the class monitors, student ambassador, and chairperson for the school magazine and prom night. Give applause to the chairperson of Buddhist society of KBB-Gautama Widya, and contributors for some other sister organizations. Also involve ‘pua thang say’ or ‘panas panas taik ayam’ in other affiliation such as SJBA and Merah Putih –Indonesian society. And bla blabla…. Where can meet her: wherever whenever a superhero is needed and no one moves their butt.
Well, hell more than enough Yenny that you know, hah? I could probably have my other splits that only certain people can see.
So, my invitation is,… would you please give me some hint which Yenny have you been dealing with?
yeha*221206… zzzz soon.
